me too, a i they were able to push the right buttons. but even before that i was told or recommended when i came back after i think it was in 2005, i went through the line, the outprocessing line and saw a psychiatrist. and she pressed the right button. she said you should probably see stb afterwards. you probably have post traumatic stress disorder. >> rose: were you surprised? >> yes, i was. i said i come from a city of 8 million people with ptsd. and she said excowes me. i said, well, rember 9/11, yeah, you know, i watched the second plane hit. and how many other people, how many people lost loved ones there, very horrifying. and so maybe that was the beginning. but again, i couldn't bring myself to, you know, here i was a lieutenant colonel, you know, i'm in the infant ree a signed to special operations command. and it was-- it is not easy to admit.